I had sex with a man after over 3+ years

Was I cock blinded?!

Personal pleasurelit journal note 23/03/25

I finally ripped the band-aid off and had penetrative sex with a man again after over 3 years. You could say I got a little Cock blinded on our second date when I heard and noticed how big and thick he was. I have ended this connection just a couple days after – for good reasons.

We met for a beach walk again on our second date. We talked for over an hour about all sorts of things. It started similar to our first date. The usual conversations of what we have been up to over the week, some business, life and family chatting, which then naturally shifted to more spicy topics of Kink, BDSM, sex and toys. I had told him that I would love to kiss on our second date to explore our sexual chemistry. I love kissing. If that isn’t aligning with me, I would not go any further. I once had a “situationship” where we had sex without kissing. I hated it and I don’t even know why I was going along with it back then - I have come a long way since. Anyway, the man agreed to kiss me on our second date. So, the anticipation was high when we walked and talked for over an hour. As the walk came to an end at his car, he asked if he could kiss me – finally! We kissed…